SCRIPTURE: Matthew 26
OBSERVATION/APPLICATION:
(Read my reflection from 2008)
But Peter declared, “Even if I have to die with you, I will never disown you.” [Matthew 26:35]
This reminds me of our bold declarations of worship when we sing as Christians:

• I have decided to follow Jesus, no turning back!
• All to Jesus, I surrender, I surrender all!
• I love to tell the story!
• Take my life and let it be consecrated Lord to Thee!

But what happens when we are not in the worship moment, and the temptations and pressures of life lure us away from God?

Then he began to call down curses, and he swore to them, “I don’t know the man!” [Matthew 26:74]
Would I still stay true to my bold declaration if my life were on the line?
Do I talk like I sing in church, when I am with other people (at work, at school, with my friends)?
Is my devotion consistent, or more tied to the moment, depending on the circumstances?
I do think that Peter was sincere in his words, that he wanted to mean what he said.
But this kind of devotion is easier to say than to do; I am not sure how I would do under pressure.
I do know that I am much more hesitant to appear overly religious or pious in public settings.
Peter’s betrayal, though painful, was forgiveable [as we see elsewhere, John 21].

Now the betrayer had arranged a signal with them: “The one I kiss is the man; arrest him.” Going at once to Jesus, Judas said, “Greetings, Rabbi!” and kissed him. [Matthew 26:48-49]
While Peter’s was unplanned, Judas’ betrayal was premeditated, and cruel.
He went up to Jesus and kissed Him, a sign of loving devotion masking an act of cruel betrayal.
Jesus replied, “Do what you came for, friend.” [Matthew 26:50]
I doubt that there sarcasm in Jesus’ voice, I sense that there was pain and sadness for Jesus.
He genuinely loved Judas, but Judas was more enticed by the gold he could make through this.

I suspect the Lord is often pained by our words and acts of devotion, more often hollow than real.
And yet I know that He loves us, and He sees the heart behind our words.
He wants us to love Him with our whole heart, not just in holy moments but also in daily life.
When the things of this world tempt us, or pressure us to pull back from Him.
Through it all, He calls us friend, and is willing to die for us, so that we might be forgiven.
I sense I am more like Peter than Judas, I want to be devoted, but I am weak.
This makes me thankful for His love and forgiveness, but it also encourages me to strive harder, with His help, to demonstrate my devotion every day – not just in church.

PRAYER:
Lord, You know my words, You know my heart. I want to be devoted, but I am weak. Thank You for loving me, for calling me friend, for dying for me despite my weak love for You.